How can you find your path in the diversity?
Create your Initiatory Garden!
How can you find your path?
How can you find your path through all this diversity without being overwhelmed by the possibilities?
Gaia is so abundant. Will you find your path? Will you carve your own path through the forest of possibilities? Will you look forward and take a step towards what you really want? What do you really care about?
And reorder your life around that?
What is your purpose? Hold your existential question for a moment. Not all unresolved questions, just the one that matters the most. Here and now.
This is an initiatory garden.
In former times, Japanese masters created these gardens to impress other empires before war. The magnificent gardens were intended to demonstrate power, and sometimes negotiations would ensue, or even wars would be avoided. Sometimes, however, they could not find a quiet place to negotiate, and war would ensue.
What is your next step? In other words, what are you struggling with right now? The question you are asking yourself is your initiation. What is your next step? Find it before you are overwhelmed by possibilities.
Sometimes it will seem chaotic and you'll feel as though you're losing yourself. But what if that's all part of the process? Finding your stepping stones and currents again along the way, by practicing and reconnecting Being with Doing.
A foot on the ground, a meshwork of questions
Instead of looking up towards where you want to go, it would be more preferable to look at your next step.
Sometimes you can't even place a stone somewhere. This is an Archan Initiatory garden. Your life is where you put your foot down.
How can you get to know your own culture? How can you connect to your Source and be present in all five bodies? What is the process for being real and authentic, sharing what you love and hate, processing your losses and moving forward? You will then meet another team, and another, and another, and garden as much as you can. Towards another path, another way.
There is no path
It’s normal not to find your path. Your path is carved by your feet. It’s forged by your footsteps. Your path is already your past. There is no past or future if you live in the present moment.
Your destiny is shaped by your choices. So be aware of your choices and of the person who makes them. Is it your box? You have already set up parameters, survival strategies, habits and preferences. Or is it your gremlin? (A life force that might trick or fool you with its infinite possibilities). Or your child ego state? (beliefs and needs)? Or is it the nostalgia or ‘saudade1’ you have for something that is blocking your impulses for the new?
Or is it your capacity to truly grasp what you want?
Gardening the Now
So, what about making a decision? What about making a clear decision about what you want and what you care about? This is the time.
and now.
and now.
and now.
Forever? Maybe not.
Maybe you’ll find a team. Maybe you’ll create that team by relentlessly expressing what you want.
Even if you can’t get it first-hand. Perhaps even more so if you can’t get it first hand. Like the roots of a wild plant growing in almost no soil.
They make roots kilometres below and grow leaves patiently, sowing new seeds and making new seedlings in the village, growing quietly. This is how a plant grows, and also how a human being grows. Step by step.
Courage by courage. Sometimes we would love to, but it would feel like abandoning something. There will be a lot of grief about not finding the thing.
But it’s not about finding the path. It’s all about your journey. It’s about the steps you take.
When you look back, you’ll realise that the only thing you can do is garden in the present moment. Gardening the now. Finding your seed, your Pearl, in the present moment.
Opening your pearl again and again in the present moment. When you review, look into the past to better understand or integrate the path you will see.
But you will also realize that despair is a fantasy too. So have hope. It’s just on the other side of the coin that you flip.
Stop flipping the coin between despair and hope. What you will find is what is happening now and how you are feeling. The next step is to identify what is really nourishing you.
How do you move towards your purpose, and how does your purpose move you? Cultivate your questions, your real, deep questions.
The path is the past.
Saudade comes from Portuguese and could be translated as the nostalgia of the future.